Agnoiologist

I’ve been studying Machiavelli lately in preparation for writing my discourse. I’ve found some very interesting things in Discourses on Livy, specifically, chapter 9 in book 1, “That It Is Necessary to Be Alone If One Wishes to Order a Republic Anew or to Reform it Altogether outside Its Ancient Orders.” Of course, as a conservative, I despise overthrowing these ancient orders. However, I do not wish to ignore it altogether. I may have to split my work into two books. One will be the one I’ve originally planned. The other will be much more dangerous. In fact, I may decide to never write it.

I have pretty bad time management skills. So, I had an essay due at 9PM today that I started today. Only, it was really really hard to start. I had so much trouble focusing. I got it in just in time, but I wasn’t very confident about the essay. Not a good sign.

Every time I get an essay back and get a good grade, I say, “Whew. Dodged another bullet.” I may not have dodged this bullet. Maybe it was overconfidence in my ability to finish essays. I’ve got two more due next week. I’m going to tell myself to get them done earlier. I’m not sure it’s going to happen.

I guess the biggest problem at this point is making myself care.